funnel clouds

October 7, 2009

I had a dream last night I was in a tornado. Mostly what I remember is this super dark sky filling up with funnel clouds, maybe four or five, and how we laid in a ditch with our cats but no one put Sasha in a crate so she ran away. I woke up feeling  pissed and sad.

There was also this 72 year old lady storm chaser. She had a perm and wore a pant suit and her retired husband drove her from storm to storm.

The thing I didn’t think about until I got to work is how in the dream I knew it was gonna be fucked up but I wasn’t scared. It was this whole exerise in absurdity except it wasn’t funny. It wasn’t just that no one in the dream would get their shit together so we could go to the basement, which is why we ended up in a ditch, but it’s how they didn’t believe me in the first place because we didn’t have a working radio or TV to get the proper announcement. I kept going outside to check and coming back reporting on the color of the sky and the number of funnel clouds and which way they were moving and everyone would say I wonder waht’s happening.

Reminds me a lot of work, which seems to be an exercise in soul killing, if you’re not real careful about what you let your mind get fixed on.

I came into today all opened up by my first trip back to Indiana since my dad died. I forgot to tuck my soul away before I got in the building.  Bad move on my part.


2 responses to “funnel clouds”

  1. liz says:

    yeah it kinda was like “whoa”. i’d imagine you must have had or be having your own kinda “whoa” moments this year, so i’m sure you know what i mean.

    it’s means a lot to me heard, read, acknowledged around all this grief stuff. thank you for giving me that, kate.

  2. Kate says:

    Liz, that last bit about being opened up, and forgetting to tuck your soul away….

    well, it’s just lovely. In a melancholy kind of way. It gave me pause. In a good, “whoa” kind of way…

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