{"id":1002,"date":"2012-10-16T05:38:37","date_gmt":"2012-10-16T05:38:37","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=1002"},"modified":"2012-10-16T06:04:55","modified_gmt":"2012-10-16T06:04:55","slug":"i-am-officially-ok-not-that-i-wasnt-before","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=1002","title":{"rendered":"i am officially ok, not that i wasn&#8217;t before"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Grey and warm. Windy and rainy. Fall for sure. I am fighting off or adapting to a headache that&#8217;s lasted 2 days. It&#8217;s more like a dull, distant chainsaw buzz now than the temple throbbing thing it was last night and this morning. Strange, as headaches aren&#8217;t my usual thing. Or at least they weren&#8217;t until the last couple years. Kinda like how not sleeping wasn&#8217;t my thing either until the more recent past.<\/p>\n<p>I had the pleasure of an unexpected visit with <a href=\"http:\/\/cowgalval.com\/\">friends<\/a>\u00a0tonight, wherein I forgot to take the sparkling water I had promised to bring because I didn&#8217;t have anything else to offer at the last minute and then I forgot it because I kept changing my shirt (I think the shirt changing is a \u00a0sign of narcissism for sure (ha)). Friends and food and and the dog, who laid next to me, were all lovely \u00a0and I was forgiven for forgetting.<\/p>\n<p>Also, I wrote an entirely new song. Not a new melody to old lyrics. But a whole new song, which puts an end to a 3 year dry spell that I had just about given up on caring if it had even had an ending. Like, I had been saying to myself, &#8220;Oh, this is the year I quit playing.&#8221; I guess I&#8217;m stretching out my 36 year streak. Anyway, this new song is kinda countryish. Not sad, but a little wistful. Feels like a perfect fit for the weather today and definitely perfect for this fall. A nice little bit of luck, part heart and part practicing almost every day for the last 3 weeks and then sticking with it, as in working through the idea. The creative process is so fascinating to me because so much of it is work and I love not having it be a mysterious thing, wherein (a word I am enjoying using tonight) the muse visits me and bestows on me this gift and I&#8217;m like &#8220;whoa.&#8221; The thing I have to remember is if I am doing the work, something is bound to happen.<\/p>\n<p>Also, my friend Frannie wrote this <a href=\"https:\/\/frantelope.wordpress.com\/2012\/10\/14\/sliced-with-an-ice-blue-knife\/#comment-1314\">amazing and mind blowing and beautiful post<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Grey and warm. Windy and rainy. Fall for sure. I am fighting off or adapting to a headache that&#8217;s lasted 2 days. It&#8217;s more like a dull, distant chainsaw buzz now than the temple throbbing thing it was last night and this morning. Strange, as headaches aren&#8217;t my usual thing. Or at least they weren&#8217;t [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[8,21],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1002","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-friends","category-gratitude"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1002","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1002"}],"version-history":[{"count":5,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1002\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1005,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1002\/revisions\/1005"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1002"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1002"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1002"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}