{"id":1222,"date":"2012-11-29T17:38:03","date_gmt":"2012-11-29T17:38:03","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=1222"},"modified":"2012-11-29T22:19:46","modified_gmt":"2012-11-29T22:19:46","slug":"not-thinking-and-heres-a-song-i-like","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=1222","title":{"rendered":"not thinking and here’s a song i like"},"content":{"rendered":"

What is it exactly that makes me flash on Indiana? I will be doing something that has nothing obvious to do with home and then, suddenly, in my mind I am walking down Lincoln or 4th street or through the stand of trees behind the law school? I know I’ve posted about this before, but it still gets to me. Is it about my heart? Is about about feeling open or vulnerable or kinda scared because I can’t explain to my mind what’s going on in my heart?\u00a0 And sometimes my mind gives me shit about that. I know this is not a thinking thing. But some moments, it’s so different to FEEL that this is not a thinking thing. Also, is it a good idea to be listening to Antony and Johnsons at work or to a mix I titled “Sad Hole?”<\/p>\n

Typically, I don’t like to quote lyrics from songs or extract them from the music their supposed to go with, because a song is the whole thing, but I’m gonna break my own rule and quote a whole song today. I’m giving myself license to do this because you can listen to the song yourself<\/a> on the Secretly Canadian site. Also, I can’t help myself from pointing out the Secretly Canadian is run out of Bloomington, my heart’s home, and that makes me happy.<\/p>\n

I wish that I could float
\nFloat up from the ground
\nI will never know
\nWhat that’s like<\/p>\n

You have a way about you
\nI wish that I had
\nThought it was impossible
\nTo live and love like you<\/p>\n

Funny how we all can change
\nIf we just try to
\nThought it was impossible
\nTo live and love like you<\/p>\n

One day you will be taller
\nTaller than the sky
\nUntil that day you will be
\nHere with us below<\/p>\n

Magic will do what magic does
\nLiving in your eyes
\nDo you think someday soon
\nYou will have the time?<\/p>\n

I could use another hand
\nTo help pull me through
\nSomeday these hospital stays
\nGet the best of me<\/p>\n

Trying to fix my mind
\nStill trying to fix my mind
\nTrying to work it out
\nI’m still trying to fix my mind<\/p>\n

Still trying to fix my mind
\nI’m still trying to fix my mind<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

What is it exactly that makes me flash on Indiana? I will be doing something that has nothing obvious to do with home and then, suddenly, in my mind I am walking down Lincoln or 4th street or through the stand of trees behind the law school? I know I’ve posted about this before, but […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13,15],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1222","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-insights","category-music"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1222","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1222"}],"version-history":[{"count":6,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1222\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1227,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1222\/revisions\/1227"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1222"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1222"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1222"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}