Last night here in the homeland. I feel strangely cut loose and solid all at the same time. I have thought of home so much this year.\u00a0 Seen certain landscapes in my mind and\u00a0felt such longing for the place\u00a0that I thought I might be romanticizing it all.\u00a0 Thought I might be wanting this sense of home to live in me\u00a0more than it does.\u00a0 But here I am and the home in me is beating and breathing even as I type.\u00a0And that is a beautiful feeling, man.<\/p>\n
I am not any closer to knowing what next or where next or how next\u00a0or anything about nextness.\u00a0\u00a0But I wasn’t coming home to\u00a0answer that question.\u00a0\u00a0How Indiana fits into whatever’s next has been to some degree resolved in undestanding\u00a0the Indiana\u00a0in me.\u00a0<\/p>\n
It has been impossible to be here and not think about this girl in western Mass. Knowing her has helped me know myself, and at times that kinda knowing has blown me away.\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Last night here in the homeland. I feel strangely cut loose and solid all at the same time. I have thought of home so much this year.\u00a0 Seen certain landscapes in my mind and\u00a0felt such longing for the place\u00a0that I thought I might be romanticizing it all.\u00a0 Thought I might be wanting this sense of […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[31,32],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-141","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-a-girl","category-place"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/141","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=141"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/141\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=141"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=141"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=141"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}