{"id":145,"date":"2008-08-04T19:54:28","date_gmt":"2008-08-04T19:54:28","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=145"},"modified":"2008-08-04T19:57:33","modified_gmt":"2008-08-04T19:57:33","slug":"i-didnt-know","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=145","title":{"rendered":"i didn&#8217;t know"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>God damn, I&#8217;m feeling heart broken these last couple days.\u00a0 My therapist pointed out that I&#8217;ve been saying for a while that I wanna feel heart break &#8212; if heartbreak is what&#8217;s gonna come out of certain situations.\u00a0 I just didn&#8217;t dwell a lot on how that might actually feel.\u00a0 Working with my fears around flying has taught me a lot about not getting too caught up in anticipatory junk.\u00a0 It&#8217;s funny, funny not being the right word at all, how your can feel so certain in your heart about some things, like loving Indiana, and how that love can&#8217;t move the mountains that make it impossible to do more than love it from a distance.\u00a0 ANd me I&#8217;m not ready for loving those immovable mountains.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>God damn, I&#8217;m feeling heart broken these last couple days.\u00a0 My therapist pointed out that I&#8217;ve been saying for a while that I wanna feel heart break &#8212; if heartbreak is what&#8217;s gonna come out of certain situations.\u00a0 I just didn&#8217;t dwell a lot on how that might actually feel.\u00a0 Working with my fears around [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[13,32],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-145","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-insights","category-place"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/145","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=145"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/145\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=145"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=145"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=145"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}