{"id":379,"date":"2010-08-04T18:20:40","date_gmt":"2010-08-04T18:20:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=379"},"modified":"2010-08-04T18:20:40","modified_gmt":"2010-08-04T18:20:40","slug":"rollercoaster","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=379","title":{"rendered":"rollercoaster"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>Upheaval. This time I bought it on myself. Switching\u00a0jobs is an opportunity to trust in my resilience. That&#8217;s what I&#8217;ve been saying to the me inside that gets caught up in predicting my future happiness or anxiousness based on leaving my old job and starting a new one. Even though it&#8217;s a futile exercise and I know that, I still get lured into it by my risk averse nature, and because it never seems futile at the outset. It seems prudent to try and figure out what&#8217;s going to make me happy, even though humans are not particularly adept at predicting their happiness (at least according to\u00a0<a href=\"http:\/\/www.nytimes.com\/2003\/09\/07\/magazine\/the-futile-pursuit-of-happiness.html?scp=13&amp;sq=%22daniel+gilbert%22&amp;st=nyt\">Daniel Gilbert<\/a>).This \u00a0morning I awoke caught up in the exact predicament I&#8217;ve just been describing, which has brought on a fair amount of anxiety, a feeling I instinctively avoid, like jerking my finger away from a hot stove. Anxiety and the awareness of my response to it makes me think that my brain is my best friend and my worst enemy &#8211; something and I wish I had a better since of humor about. But forcing a sense of humor seems pointless. Although just the idea of saying &#8220;Ease up, mother fucker&#8221; makes me laugh because of the ineherent contradiction. I&#8217;ve got this line from an Ohio Player&#8217;s song stuck in my brain &#8211; &#8220;Rollercoaster of love, Rollercoaster.&#8221;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Upheaval. This time I bought it on myself. Switching\u00a0jobs is an opportunity to trust in my resilience. That&#8217;s what I&#8217;ve been saying to the me inside that gets caught up in predicting my future happiness or anxiousness based on leaving my old job and starting a new one. Even though it&#8217;s a futile exercise and [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[5],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-379","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-change"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/379","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=379"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/379\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=379"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=379"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=379"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}