{"id":53,"date":"2008-02-01T20:38:32","date_gmt":"2008-02-01T20:38:32","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=53"},"modified":"2008-02-01T20:38:32","modified_gmt":"2008-02-01T20:38:32","slug":"sick-of-myself","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/?p=53","title":{"rendered":"sick of myself"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m feeling done in and undone at the same time and  I&#8217;m completely uninterested in embracing this process. Sometimes, I just so sick of it all.\u00a0 I&#8217;d like to just put my heart on ice.<\/p>\n<p>From Pema Chodron: <a href=\"http:\/\/www.thinkingpeace.com\/Lib\/lib092.html\"><em>We may doubt        that we&#8217;re up to being a warrior-in-training. But we can ask ourselves this question:        &#8220;Do I prefer to grow up and relate to life directly, or do I choose to live and die in        fear?&#8221;<\/em><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I&#8217;m feeling done in and undone at the same time and I&#8217;m completely uninterested in embracing this process. Sometimes, I just so sick of it all.\u00a0 I&#8217;d like to just put my heart on ice. From Pema Chodron: We may doubt that we&#8217;re up to being a warrior-in-training. But we can ask ourselves this question: [&hellip;]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[20,13],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-53","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-banality","category-insights"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=53"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/53\/revisions"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=53"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=53"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.proteanme.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=53"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}