nothing much

March 27, 2008

Gosh, I’m feeling kinda melancholy today. It’s not something dramatic. It’s not something I’m trying to ward off either. It just is what it is. Lots of little things and nothing big really, although I feel I’ve had some big revelations lately. The funny thing is big revelations don’t always lead to big changes or big action, especially when it’s about mostly understanding who I am in the world. If I had to try and say it better, I’d say things change your life, but that doesn’t mean your life changes. I guess I’ve also had some big longings lately that are just longings, at least for the time being . The “just” in there is not meant to minimize their intensity, but to say I can’t make anything solid come of them, anything more solid than lots and lots of words. Frankly, I’m amazed at the amount of words I got inside me. Sometimes when people say what’s going on, I wanna say nothing much except everything, but that sounds kinda corny.


3 responses to “nothing much”

  1. ned says:

    i meant to comment on your “experiments in writing” post – good stuff! i want to read the rest of that story.

  2. proteanme says:

    i think i’m going to use that within a story. i do have an essay i want to share with you though. i’d love to get your feedback. i can never decide how much of my writing i wanna post here b/c i don’t wanna get ripped off. thoughts?

  3. ned says:

    if you’re worried about getting ripped off, then you probably don’t want to post it. so email it to me. 🙂

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