nothing big here

October 30, 2008

I’ve just been churning inside and not externalizing it very much, which explains some of the silence here. Plus I’m not very well groomed for social commentary and I don’t watch TV or listen to the radio much, so I’ve not had much to say about the big topics at hand, like the election and the financial meltdown.¬† I’m glad to have a number of friends who are better equipped in this arena. With that in mind, onto something completely different.

First, here are some photos from the butch femme bash I attended when I went to SF.

I was really moved by Forest Church talking with Terry Gross about living, loving and death. Early on in the interview he talks about not believing in an interventionist God. A God who micro-manages our lives. He goes on to articulating how he does not find solace in the face of tragedy, whatever the scale, when folks say “It’s part of God’s plan” or “God has his reasons.” His words were powerful: God doesn’t throw a three year old child out of a window. Or allow a drunken driver to kill a family crossing the street. These are accidents if life and death. If God is responsible for the a tsunami that¬† obliterates the lives of hundreds of thousands of people and leaves their families in tatters, then God is a bastard.

I’m thinking about my friend who is having her first round of chemo today and hoping for the best.

And I’m heading east next week to see one of my most favorite people in the world and then to meet this girl I’ve been wanting to meet for a long time now.


4 responses to “nothing big here”

  1. ned says:

    I hear that interview too (if it’s the one I’m thinking of, that is). I liked his own experience with dealing with his mortality when he thought he was going to die. He was feeling like he passed with flying colors (in terms of being at peace with the news) but his wife pointed out that he wasn’t the only one dealing with the potential loss, which was a bit of an eye-opener for him. Good stuff. Unitarians seem to be the opposite of fundamentalism.

  2. proteanme says:

    Yep, that’s the same interview. I liked it too. I’ve had these experiences lately where I realize something, like right “I’m part of someone else’s story”. So easy to be focused on my own.

  3. pep says:

    Snazzy suit!

    I got in a crazy argument once with a friend when saying that I’d always had just that problem with the ‘god moves in mysterious ways’ explanation for bad things happening in a world overseen by an all powerful deity. She even denied that it was something christians say. I can see drawing comfort from the thought, but for me, thinking it through to the logical conclusion, it makes worship of this controlling deity beyond my power.

  4. proteanme says:

    Thanks Pep!

    Forest went on to say that God is a life force greater than all and present in each one of us and that resonated better with me. I’ll go out on a limb and say that when I think of God, which I don’t much, I think it’s about nurturing the God in me and the God in you. The stuff of stars standing in line at the grocery, kids crying and a new cashier trying to process a return. Is that too abstract?

    I’ll tell you who moves in mysterious ways — humans.

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