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It’s been about 2 months since I gave notice at Rejuvenation, which is hard to believe because it seems like that happened just yesterday and at the same time as it seems like that was eons ago. It’s been a quiet and restrained kind of whirlwind since then – a whirlwind inside – and in lots of respects I closed the shutters for a little while, made myself as unexposed as I could so I could manage the stress of change.Leaving Rejuvenation was bitter sweet, for a lot of reasons that I don’t want to go into because this is not the best venue for that sort of thing, and I knew that when I left the job I was going to go through a period of regret and missing certain things terribly. It took a couple weeks for those feelings to kick in, but they did, of course. And knowing I was going to feel that way helped me a little, as far as not taking the feelings quite so seriously, but it didn’t make me feel any less crappy. And riding out the crappy feelings kinda sucked. Thank goodness for RU. And thank goodness that crappy feelings don’t last forever, at least the garden variety kinda crappy feelings don’t.As of today, I’ve just buttoned up a month’s worth of work at my new job and I’m starting to feel that the dizzying experience of change is unwinding. Whew. I noticed last night that I was feeling a little less hunkered down. And today at work, the learning curve felt a little less steep. Sitting here tonight I feel a little more like I am me again. Changed a bit, of course, but it’s nice to be out from under the cover of my protective shell and a little more open to the experience of newness.